Everyone knows somebody who just talks to hear their own voice? I wonder if people like that ever get tired of what they have to say? Like Kim Kardashian--does she get tired of seeing herself everywhere? Is that why some movie stars don't watch their own stuff--they've had enough.
Well, I'm not famous or known for my outstanding appearance, plus I hate hearing my own voice on the answering machine, but the point today is I'm sick of what I have to say. How can I feel the same pain and find some way to express it everyday?
I smashed my thumb today. It's black. I'll probably lose the nail. I'm not using it to type. It really hurts, and when I just sit down and don't keep myself doing something, it throbs. After several hours it's still throbbing. And guess what? All that does is remind me of my life. It hurts. A lot. How many days, weeks, months can a person cry? How long can I just barely function with a to do list of the things that can't be put off any more?
I'm sick of it. I'm tired of how I feel. Post-bawling headaches are awful. The never-being-hungry and losing weight has passed--that was the only good thing I had and it's over.
Like I said, I'm sick of my own voice.
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