Why does God tell us to do things that only He knows we could ever actually accomplish? It seems like kind of a trick to me--kinda like the guy who was lucky enough to be given one talent. He is so protective of the gift that he hides it to make sure he doesn't lose it and have it inadvertently stolen. At least that's how I see it. He didn't maliciously or lazily bury it. He just wanted to make sure nothing ever happened to it. I know that's probably the wrong interpretation--of course it is, I've read the story dozens of times. He was supposed to invest it. Is it just the time I've grown up in that makes me think investments are so risky? What if it was the only thing of worth he ever got and he didn't safeguard it? It's kinda like getting a family heirloom, a necklace or a fancy tablecloth or something. Would you want to set your table and eat on a lace cover that was your great-grandmother's or would you keep it stored in tissue under the bed?
This is a long drawn out introduction to why my scriptures look like they do in this photo. God has given me some really powerful insights into the scriptures; more specifically how to ask Him questions and get answers. I have written the references all in one spot--Doctrine and Covenants Section 4. I've also been given very specific counsel that I am to be a writer--that I should have that as my "career"--that what I write will be directed.
Huh! I can't do it.
How can I write about something that I think I know so very much about, but that I don't live?
Why would anyone listen or be influenced by me? I'm not anybody. Besides, what if I'm wrong? I wouldn't even want to let anyone know if I was attempting to try, because then they would know when I failed.
I feel totally and completely useless. I sleep. I eat--too much of both I'm afraid. I complete the tasks that I have to. I bawl.
This is why there haven't been many posts this month.
1 comment:
I would read it. :)
You have a lot of interesting and thought provoking things to say.
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