Blind Faith

When primary got to be too much for me yesterday,   I snuck into relief society and sat in the back.  I was really surprised at the discussion that was going on.  I disagreed on so many levels, but since I came in in the middle,  I didn't want to comment.  Now I do.

The instructor was talking about obedience and saying we need to do it without questioning.  She used the term "blind faith" more than once.  I was really uncomfortable with it.  To me, it's one of those things like predestination--something that is at odds with the plan.

I think I question too much and too often.  I think I have serious trust issues,  even with God,   but I also think we are supposed to question.  After all,  aren't we supposed to become as little children if we want to enter the kingdom of heaven?  Who asks more questions than little children?  What adult asks why as often as a child?  How else can we possibly know the nature of God without asking questions?

Somebody told me something wise recently.  I think it was my brother.  He said the only real test of faith is to be pushed so far past what we know that we have no choice but to question--in that questioning we come closer to God.  I think that's true.  I think blind faith is close to ignorance.  We are supposed to do things for the right reasons and I'm all for obedience being a good reason,  but if we don't wonder and ask what the reason is, how do we learn what the right reason should be?

"I will go,  I will do, the things the Lord commands.
I know the Lord provides a way.
He wants me to obey."   

This primary song about Nephi even suggests to me that we need to ask.  How do we learn about the way that's provided without asking the why and the how questions?  Maybe it's just semantics.  We need to obey,  but to me,  the asking,  seeking and knocking are intertwined and without them, there is no knowledge or testimony to go along with the obedience.